There is no antidote

I used to believe that taking anti-depressants for the rest of my life was the part that hurt the most in regards to my affliction. Now that I've gone without them for an extended period I've come to understand what hurts the most is having the capacity to understand what happened to me, the primitivism of it all. Most days I feared for my life from physical threats: Gangs on bus rides, my father's hands, and the aftermath of an anticipated murder of my Mother-the consequences which would ultimately be endured by two blameless children. Call those average Tuesday thoughts. Yet as I fly 30,000 feet over stark white precipices of the Rocky mountains on a return flight from a meeting where I hold a national position, I select through online proofs of a man adorned in doctorate gowns- a symbol of the upper echelons of society. I'm reminded of the profound mountains moved by a mighty God, my friends, and myself to be that man. The irony now is how I continue to fear my lif

I think the concept of free speech is phenomenal, but thinking about how free speech is encouraged in this country is to also recognize that political campaigns whether individual or those affecting work force sectors, are supported by dollars, and the most amount of dollars comes from whiteness and wealthiness. All to say that wealthy people and corporations have far more free speech in this country than others. When we continue to give bigots platforms to speak, legitimize their arguments with on-air time, or do not shut down the generation of political parties rooted in their (evidence shown) damaging ideaologies, we become implicit in continued oligarchical opressive regimes. I think there are a lot of people--non-communities of color, and people of color alike--that don't wish malice on one another, but we don't put enough of that into direct and overt action (i.e. boldly constructing and backing anti-racists policies, generating awareness around Christian Dominionism, b