There is no antidote

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. I took a practice MCAT the other day, one of the several I've taken in the past few weeks and I'm still sitting in the same range that I've been in(not where I need to be mind you). Even though I know I'm not where I need to be for this test I am comforted by the Lord's word. Already the first part of this scripture brings peace to my mind~God knows the plans he has for me so that means even if I don't, he has something under wraps. Not only does he have plans for me, his plans involve me doing well, his words say that I should have expectations and desires ("give you hope"). I may not know how I'm going to get there: MCAT, post bac, killing a man... But I know that there is purpose in my life, enough for him to keep me in mind. Anyways- We are moving out in like 10 days! It's crazy. I think the girls ma

Two weeks. Yup, 14 days until I take my MCAT, until I move back into the dorms, until I start RA training. It all happens in a fort-night. I've taken 2 practice tests so far, and done hundreds of questions and I know I'm not where I need to be. But I prayed earlier this week about whether I should postpone my test like every classmate of mine has or not. And I thought I heard "take it" so here I am. Part of me wants to go into this test feeling so confident that I've prepared, but the other more masochistic part of me wants to go in, look at that test, and know nothing at all. There is good reason for the latter half of that last statement. If I went into that test and felt like it was the hardest test ever and that I didn't know anything, but somehow ended up doing extremely well on the test, I would not be able to attribute any of the credit to myself. Nope all the glory would be to God, because it would have been him to have gotten me through that test, a