Summer 2011

SO I'm lying here, mouth full of bloody gauze due to a newly extracted wisdom tooth and I can't help but feel like that visit to the dentist was the worst experience ever.
Surprisingly, this day has been the worst day of the summer which actually makes me really happy because in retrospect, this summer has been amazing. God has shown me some beautiful things regarding my future and really ugly things that I need to change about myself.

Studying for the MCAT has been a struggle though. It's amazing to think that this 5 hour test is what stands in the way of me wanting to medically help 1000s of people. Amazing- just one of the few words that describes how I feel right now. Anxious being another, "drugged up" being the last. I just pray that along with going out every week and having fun I can buckle down and focus at what really needs my attention.

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