There is no antidote

Sometimes you just get one of those days where you wonder" how can this get possibly worse" and then you continue to find answers to the question you asked. Today was one of those days. I've had this strange sensation fall over me the past couple of days, a sensation that has been following me with a conviction I have never seen before and it has left me quite tired. I'm tired of having to wait for things to get better-not that I wouldn't go out there and make them better if I could myself; in some situations all you can do is sit back and let the punches roll up and down your face. But is it not ok for me to say that after I've been punched for 10 mins straight I can't be tired? A ring, enclosed in large vinyl ropes Bob to the left-shake to the right quick short breaths quick short breaths A jab at his side, a throw at his side, a cut to the chin It's over right? A simple mistake waking up...

I think it so funny that Friday-the commence of the weekend is like this positive force; whereas the weekdays have become such a negative force. No wonder why the weekend looks so attracting. That was a stab at science humor but I don't think that it turned out the way I wanted it to. In any case I am so excited for tomorrow, hanging out with old friends and hopefully making some new ones-oh! and being scared out of my mind...

There are just some people in the world, no matter how nice they are, that will never photograph well. Looking at pics on Facebook has made me come to this realization. Education. In terms of school. Some people are just not meant for it at all, I don' t think that they are against the idea of learning, but rather just not in the colloquial context that we all usually associate it with:text books, analysis, note copying.For me it is truly hard to think that I could live a life outside of school to learn. So many experiences occur at school-it's not just the frigid textbook learning that goes on here, you develop as a person from school. I think that educational systems should develop more clandestine approaches to teaching people who are not meant for the type of education system that we have right now. Fate isn't in your hands It makes little sense to me that The one letter code for Tryptophan is W. Sierra Mist is one of the best sodas that has ever come to touch my lips A...

So its the start of the new school year and I am honestly really excited to be back. Being a move in assistant was...an experience but I was entirely glad to see all my UCLA friends again. I say UCLA friends because I recognize that there is a difference-not that I think that one group of friends is better than another that is not what I am trying to say at all. What is the word I am looking for? Motivation. That's the word. There is just this satisfaction in surrounding yourself with people that want to do something, something with their lives-with other's lives, and with the world. I mean I love my friends at home I really do-and in fact I'm not even thinking about some of them fitting into this category as I write this, but then there is that group of friends who just don't seem to want to go anywhere. People can say "well that's not fair Jordan, some people don't think school is their calling" true but I am not just referencing academics. There are...

so it looks as though my blogs are going to be merely reactions towards books I have read, but I don't think that will be the case ha-ha. Its just that I have read another good book that has made me ponder about life; the book I am talking about is called The Road by Cormac McCarthy. This book is nothing short of awesome-truly. It really got me thinking. Value- what do we put a value on when it really comes down to it. Love? wealth? Security? There are so many things that seem valuable to us but when it really came down to it-if the things we believed had some worth in our lives vanished, no, were taken from us- I want to know how important would it REEAALLLLY be. I'm trying to think of what I hold valuable in my life. food, friends, laughter (it sounds like a dinner party) but really I value those things so much. I can say that food is extrinsically valuable-actually all of them are because they serve as a means to bring me to what I guess I really want out of life, happiness...

So my friend Amy let me borrow this book by Khaled Hosseini, I happen to be quite fond of the man so I think that the book is going to be pretty good. I have only gotten about 100 pages in (it's a 400 pg book) and I have to admit that I love it. There is this one part especially ( spoiler alert! ) where the main character Miriam is forced to wear a burka and it goes through like her mental process of her husband making her wear one. At first I was mad because I was like well how can someone make someone cover themselves like that and hide who they are but, what Miriam explained was how her husband Rasheed wanted her to be protected and basically from his perspective-his wife and him share something that no one else needs to see. There was also a part where she had to stay upstairs while his friends were over and I originally thought well that's preposterous run down stairs and be known woman! But once again I was enlightened when Miriam explained that her husband didn't wan...