Vulnerability

I think I would consider myself privileged. I could have a horrible situation eating and tearing away at me, but also have friends and people that care about me to ameliorate that pain within a matter of minutes. Literally phone calls/texts/ minutes away. It makes me wonder, How people without those friends get by? I think out of a vulnerability with other people you learn to minimize the judgment that you may at one point have had in your heart. I feel like if there was someone with a problem whether it be an addiction or domestic issue or academic issue, I feel as though I wouldn't cast judgment on them anymore- not like I used to anyway. Its amazing what pains God can pull out of your life. I bring this up because I have been constantly feeling judged and treated poorly for the past couple of weeks, but because I have friends to lift that off my shoulders the judgment doesn't sting like it was intended to do. Being vulnerable is like a member of my arsenal I feel that as long as I can be myself at all times and people know who I am, I never have to feel like im defined by other people's opinions.

I have worth, and I will keep telling myself that.

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